I'm giving into the Light

So .... It's 2015... where has the time gone, truly. The past seven (7) years have been the most difficult I have ever encountered. Seven (7) being a complete cycle/circle I am truly ready to move onward and upward. I haven't really been one for resolution yet I am a big fan of reflection (sankofa really). As I reflect I'll do so here in this blog for myself and may others benefit as well.

This is a testimony of sorts.... I want to be accountable for what has transpired but more importantly I want to account for what is happening in the now.

In reflection I have over come

• A Deadly Illness 
• Homelessness
• Joblessness
• Depression
• Physical Assault

All while raising a teen aged daughter that I had to fight the system and family to maintain guardianship over. I also completed another degree.  * side note: for me its not the degree or what it represents that is important but rather the process of learning and gaining knowledge of something new that is the draw. I truly enjoy the process of educating oneself... degree or no degree*

And although each of these things are very serious the triumph here is that I have accomplished so much by overcoming each and everyone of them. 

I feel very successful, by my own definition. Oh wait... feelings... I have to say the main take away from the past 3 or so years is that I have be honored with is awareness of my emotions. The iceberg reference means so much to me, it was ICONIC. Emotions, for me, are like the success iceberg. The work is letting more and more of the iceberg to be seen. In the past I was very stoic for several reasons, mainly because I thought that was how I was suppose to be. Turns out I get to be however I choose to be. Imagine that... I can be emotional and that is just fine. Choice has become one of my favorite parts of living in the NOW.

I have several aspirations most of which deals with being of service. I am truly looking forward to this new year and all the living I get to do within it.

Now, I get to work on consistency, discipline, focus and perseverance.  I get to transition into a career that I enjoy completely, ideally in DC government (Ombudsmanship, IOG or Strategic Policy Planner). I get to complete on another degree, MPA-IG from CUNY- John Jay College of Criminal Justice. I get to work diligently on myself mentally, physically and spiritually daily. Most importantly, to me, I get to live in each moment fully. This is a habit I am still forming, a work in progress. I think it will be a life long pursuit. One that is never ending and ever changing. NOW is such a present unwrapping it should take forever.

Thanks for reading, I appreciate you.

Breathe, Choose, Breathe again *repeat*

GO blessed with Peace!

Love is...TL

Music that is the lyte It's Working  (I KNOW I KNOW) William Murphy

Book that is the lyte Unbroken

Poem that is the lyte "I Am" Ella Wheeler Wilcox 

Visual Art that is the lyte Aaron Douglas The Creation

Addictive Mindsets *Attaining Lyte"

I often kid that Addicts find a way to get what they want and once they have it they are SUPER DUPER thankful finally getting it. They may not be so thankful for the $0.10 you just gave them but once they have the true goal in hand, nose, mouth or vein they are forever thankful.

So being the scientist that I am I wanted to develop a formula that addictive folx might have and more so to understand the thought process so that more people can attain their TRUE end goals.

Here is what I got so far *more posts on this later* ....
1. You have to not only know and understand what you want but you got to fiend/feel for it
2. What you want has to consume your every thought. I mean its got to be in the foreground and background of your mind each moment
3. You have to plot out a way to get what you want
4. You have to be available to plot # 1 thru #1000
5. You have to ask for what you need to get what you want
6. You can not take rejection personal or allow it to deter you
7. You must follow thru to the end no matter what

Now there are a couple of things we must keep in mind to maintain sanity and be healthy

1. We have to assess whether or not what we desire is worthy of the attention we are about to give it
*IF YOU CAN NOT DO STEP ONE PLEASE DO NOT MOVE FORWARD*
2. We have to some sort of daily practice or connection to something high then yourself and that is not the idea you want to attain. Ie meditation and prayer
3. We should not try to attain a thing because Mrs. Jones has it
4. We should be prepared to be humbled by the entire experience
5. We should never BEG for anything alone the way
6. We should never harm another to get that which we want to attain
7. We should come out of the experience with lesson to grow from

As I treat addicts with Acudetox I see more and more folx who find a way. Even if there is no way. Excuses become no more and moments truly become precious. I often think "WOW, he/she is relentless.... unstoppable even" And if that effort was put towards something beneficial to their lives they could be everything dreams are made of.
I want to be the person who lives the dreams. On twitter today @paulocoelho said ": An alchemist: a person who transforms dreams into reality. Be one" I so want to be an alchemist. Now I have a goal ....time to take action.



More to come......

Love is.....TL

ASPIRING LYTE 12/09/08

Be not the slave of your own past. Plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience that shall explain and overlook the old.

Ralph Waldo Emerson

ASPIRING LYTE!!!! 12/02/08

All our progress is an unfolding, like a vegetable bud. You have first an instinct, then an opinion, then a knowledge as the plant has root, bud, and fruit. Trust the instinct to the end, though you can render no reason.

Ralph Waldo Emerson